This is a whine post! As I write
it, I have a double shot of baileys (didn’t have wine to whine with).
Letting go of the baby is hard! Even
through a bad back, a flare up of asthma and my own personal goals I can’t stay
away from my little baby baby too long. My gosh, although I nudge my friends to
be less clingy with their little ones, I haven’t un-clung myself to baby baby! He
is a heavy 10 month-er and his mummy’s back is starting to protest at his
weight! This post is primarily about that. BACK-PAIN. All I did before today’s
bout of close to crippling pain was walk to the gate while carrying him and
back into the house… barely 20 steps with three outdoor stairs, a girl cannot
sit up straight or bend without wincing… let alone stand straight.
I do not want to see a
chiropractor again and physiotherapy is not an option. My husband thinks my
aches and pains are because I got fat. So his solution is losing weight. But see
I had an Afro dance session today that wouldn’t have happened for this bloody
pain. I gave up training with him because my back couldn’t handle the strain
(also his workouts are brutal! Effective, but quite brutal), thus my catch 22. To
work out means more pain and possibly injure an already weak back. I do not
like pain neither do I want anything more to take me to a doctor. This pain
makes me useless to me. Now if I am useless to me, who can I be useful to? There
are lots of resources online about how to strengthen ones back especially post
pregnancy but I want tried and tested ways from Kenyan or African women,
because I am tired of trial and error.
I want to play with my babies and
dance my way back to form but yahwah! Mugo-ongo! Talk to me if you have an idea
that will not cost me money I don’t have ;). (Brokenness is also the price I
pay for being unable to un-cling myself from baby baby too long – Clingy motherly
motherhood, hoyeee!)
On the bright side, moving baby
baby to share a room with his brother took one night of needy tortured wails, 2
or so nights of wailing protests against his new room and then relative peace
and sleeping through the night! So dear moms, my tried and tested method of
sleep training is cry-it-out. Steel your nerves for one week and you will have
your nights back.